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[livlaughlove]

[Ohhh there's his handsome mansome. Livio tips his hat real polite-like and smiles up at Dolph.]

Howdy. I brought ya somethin'. 'n I was hopin' to talk, if ya got the time.

[laserhawk]

Sure.

[ he climbs down since that would be more polite? or at least better for talking face to face. he's dressed in a plain sleeveless shirt and black slacks. ]

What's on your mind?

[livlaughlove]

[Livio is never not in his t-shirt and leather pants, very sorry about that.]

Well, first of all...

[He offers a little paper-wrapped bundle to Dolph. Inside is a single, very simple clay cup. It's bigger than a standard coffee mug because... well, mostly because Livio's big hands, but also because Dolph is taller than average. And the walls are thick, to maintain heat. It's glazed and fired and everything, all ready to be used!]

This ain't pretty, or nothin, but... I did actually make it.

[laserhawk]

[ oh. dolph takes it carefully, cradling it. ]

That's . . . incredible.

[livlaughlove]

[...

????????

Hello??? Dolph come on... It's ugly...]

That's, um... generous!

[laserhawk]

[ dolph runs his fingers over it, entranced. this was made for him. not something processed or factory-made like everything on eden was. ]

I like it.

[livlaughlove]

[... Well. Dolph's reaction is genuine enough that Livio can't help but believe it. Like so many things around Dolph, it makes his cheeks feel warm.]

I'm glad... First thing I made that actually made it through the kiln.

[laserhawk]

And you want me to have it?

You sure you don't want to keep it?

[livlaughlove]

Sure as the suns rise.

Got told it oughta go to somebody special, 'n... well. You're the first one I thought of. Honestly, I wish I had somethin' prettier or more unique to offer...

[laserhawk]

[ that is . . . sweet. he curls his fingers around him. ]

I'll take care of it.

Was there something you wanted?

[livlaughlove]

[Ah. And now he's suddenly worried Dolph will think he was buttering him up.]

Yeah. I was hopin' we could, um... clarify some things? Just so I'm not steppin' on toes or nothin'.

[laserhawk]

[ hmm. ]

Sure. Anything in particular?

[livlaughlove]

[He swears he was making that silly cup long before this.

There's a moment where Livio just chews on his lip, trying to figure out the best way to word things...]

Well, for starters, I want it out there that yer feelin's are important to me. So if you're willin' to be blunt 'n honest with me, I'd sure appreciate it. ... Not that you haven't been so far, I just wanna be certain.

[Hough.]

Where d'you stand on seein' other folks official-like? I mean more than just kissin' 'n that stuff. Actually usin' big words like "partner" or whatnot. [And actually --] Before you answer, I want you to know whatever you say won't make me wanna stop bein' with you. Like y'said before... I chose you.

[laserhawk]

[ dolph turns the cup over in his hands, thinking it over. livio doesn't have much experience. with partners, with people too, most likely. all of this is new to him. and it's less new to dolph. he's been in love. he's done dating. he's done it all. ]

You should . . . meet more people if you want. Kiss them, sex, whatever. I won't mind. It'll be good. It'll help you learn what you want.

[ livio is not in love with him. dolph is . . . too broken to fall in love with someone. being pedantic seems unfair and he didn't want to do that. it should be a beautiful thing, to search and find what you're missing. what you don't even know you wanted.

he swallows it down. ]

If you get yourself another partner, then I'd like to know. Or we can not be, if that's easier.

[livlaughlove]

[Liv sure hopes it's okay to touch him right now, because he can't seem to stop himself from at least trying to lay his hand over Dolph's.]

It isn't that I don't wanna be with you. I for sure don't wanna leave you just to go chasin' other folks. I just... I guess I got stuff in my head without actually askin' how you feel before now.

I know your last relationship went... real sour. The last thing I want's to make you feel like you don't matter to me. I get that we don't know near everythin' about each other, but that don't mean I don't wanna be with you. I do.

[laserhawk]

[ the touch is reassuring and it settles him a little. ]

You can be with me and still want to be with other people. You should get to explore that.

I just meant . . . if your feelings change. If you feel strongly about someone else, you should follow it through.

[livlaughlove]

[Thank god for that. He may just hold Dolph's hands with both of his, in that case.]

I'll keep it in mind, I guess. But... what about you? If yer wonderin' about my feelin's, I want you to find as much love as y'can handle.

[laserhawk]

[ ah. he ducks his head a little, letting his hair fall over his face. ]

I don't think that's a good idea.

[livlaughlove]

[Livio feels like he should give Dolph space, but he's trying to stop assuming what Dolph wants.]

Why not...?

[laserhawk]

Well, the last time I fell in love, he shot me five times and sold me out to the person who put a bomb in my head and used me as a virus.

And after that, he tried to wine and dine me, saying how he still loved me.

[livlaughlove]

[Despite Livio's... feelings on this ex, right now he's just worried about Dolph.

... And maybe a little bit about what that means for them.]

I mean... you deserve people who care about you. Who act like it.

Is this... [Is it unfair to ask this when he isn't in love with Dolph yet? Maybe. He really can't tell.] Do you not want this to go that far? To... love, I mean. I'd shoot myself before I would you.

[laserhawk]

[ dolph eyes him curiously for a moment before becoming somber. ]

It's the one thing I can't ask of anyone. Even you. It's . . . too much work. Too much pain. And it's not supposed to be. I know how it was. I was loved.

It's nice to be with you. Nicer . . . than I ever thought it could be. But you're not in love with me. And you're not going to be.

[livlaughlove]

[Livio's heart aches for Dolph. So much so it takes the air from his lungs for a moment.]

... That doesn't answer my question. Do you want it, Dolph? Because if you don't, I -- I don't know if that's somethin' I can promise. [He may be a fool about a lot of things, but Livio is plenty aware that he loves fast, and he loves so much it consumes him.]

[laserhawk]

[ he blinks a ear from his eye as he laughs hoarsely, his voice quiet and wrecked. ]

Yeah. I still want it.

[livlaughlove]

Okay... [He squeezes his hands slightly around Dolph's, unsure if he wants more contact.

Maybe it's selfish to try to relate to him out loud, but... it also feels like Dolph is so alone and Liv would give anything in this moment to make it not so.]

... I loved, too. I wasn't in love, but -- it was still real love. [His feelings may have been manipulated, but they were real. Not just to Livio.] The person I loved and trusted the most tried to kill me, just because it was convenient. I gave him my everything, and I was still expendable.