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[girlybruiser]

It's more of what they aren't saying.
They live with Maruki-san, so I understand it's harder on them. They've been here longer than I have.

[laserhawk]

I just hope they're not doing anything stupid.

I haven't checked on Akechi and I know he's doing something stupid.

[girlybruiser]

[ She doesn't care what Akechi gets up to. ♥︎ ]

I just wish I knew how to help my friends. It's rather agonizing to wait and see.

[laserhawk]

There's no cure to grieving. You can just be there.

[girlybruiser]

[ She looks at the calendar date.

The 11th is approaching fast. ]

Are you holding up well then? Please let me know if there's anything I can do.

[laserhawk]

I'll be fine.

What about you?

[girlybruiser]

My heart does feel heavy. If he's not coming back, it makes me sad not to be able to say goodbye or thank him for everything.
But I know I'm being a bit naïve. We don't always get to say goodbye to the people we care about.

[laserhawk]

No. We don't always get that chance. But you don't need to say goodbye.

As long as he knew your true feelings, that's enough.

[girlybruiser]

[ Well. ]

Maruki-san wouldn't be the first to not know.
We're from the same reality, but he's months behind me. There are certain things I've left unsaid, because I believe he needs to uncover certain truths on his own.

[laserhawk]

[ oh. hm. then maybe. maybe. ]

Makes sense. There are things I had to keep quiet about. Things people forgot when they came back.

Maybe . . . he'll remember them.

[girlybruiser]

That would be nice. I don't like keeping things from friends, but all of us seem to be from different timelines. It's quite confusing for me still.
Does it happen often? So far, Neil-kun and Charlie-kun haven't come back. I don't know what this is usually like.

[laserhawk]

If it's been over a month, chances are . . . they won't be back. Plus, you can tell if their profile on the Oracle still exists.

But yeah. It happens. To a lot of people I knew.

[girlybruiser]

I'm sorry you've been through that.
Grief is... strange for me. I'm not sure how to describe it.

[laserhawk]

Strange?

[girlybruiser]

[ How does she begin to describe it? ]

Sometimes I'm still figuring out how to grieve.
The father I was hoping who would return to me was gone before we could possibly make that happen.

[ Grief upon grief. What could have been. It's so easy for her to get lost in it, especially now. ]

I'm sorry. I'm prattling off now.

[laserhawk]

I don't think there's a . . . way to grieve. There may be methods people use, things that resonate among others . . . but it's different for everyone.

For a long time, all I did was grieve. My anger was my grief.

[girlybruiser]

What did you do to manage it?

[ Most of her grief was melancholy and regret. She remembers thinking if she had only acted rationally about her fiance, her father might still be alive.

Maybe. ]

[laserhawk]

I didn't. I simply ran out of time.

[girlybruiser]

I see. I won't let anger consume me, but it's hard not to feel... some of it.
Even if we don't always get what we want in life.

[laserhawk]

Nothing wrong with anger itself.

You just have to be careful when it consumes you. Like it did with me.

[girlybruiser]

I'm lucky to have the friends that I have, including back home. People I love and who love me, without asking anything in return.
I believe that helps with the anger and the sadness, even when I'm reminded of it.

[laserhawk]

That probably helps.

[ he didn't have one. and perhaps that's for the best. what good can dolph laserhawk do? it's not like he gave back anything good to anyone. ]

[girlybruiser]

It does.
... it's coming up to one year of my father's passing. Neil-kun is gone and now Maruki-san is gone.
I'm sorry, it just feels like a lot has happened in such little time.

[laserhawk]

It's hard when it stacks up. Long ago, someone I was close to left this place. He was one of my first friends. Someone who promised to protect me.

When he came back, he had forgotten me. It made me feel obsolete.

But all the things the people left me with . . . they're not gone. Because I'm still here. It's hard not to want more, but sometimes. This is what you have.

Take it from someone who had nothing. What you have now matters.

[girlybruiser]

[ For a moment, her heart is lifted by the thought of all her new friends and the lifelong bonds she's forged with them. Over a year ago, Haru couldn't fathom a life beyond the gilded cage she was forced into. ]

You're right! I didn't have a life to live for before.
But now I do.