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[bakegarasu]

true but there's personal secrets.

and then there's gross secrets.

[laserhawk]

There's what now.

[bakegarasu]

there's secrets you keep hidden because it's something bad you did or whatever.

and then there's stuff you don't tell people because it'd gross them out and make them really uncomfortable and look at you weird.

[laserhawk]

[ hmm. ]

Maybe it will, a little. But people won't hold it against you. And they'll move on.

Everyone here is at least 40% freak anyway.

[bakegarasu]

i mean you're not wrong i guess.

it's just fucking weird.

[laserhawk]

I came from a world that gets attacked by rabbit kaiju and where prisons force you to play shitty video games to power their AI systems.

The bar's high.

[bakegarasu]

okay that last one doesn't even make sense.

[laserhawk]

And yet. I can keep going.

[bakegarasu]

i mean you're right.

but you'll think i'm even more weird than i am even though it's not even my fault.

[laserhawk]

So what if you are?

Why would that make a difference to me? I don't give a shit about weirdness.

cw: incest

[bakegarasu]

true you don't seem to.

ok.

my dad is also my brother.

[laserhawk]

[ ah. that kind of weird. ]

Sorry. That's pretty shitty circumstances.

Your mother?

cw: verbal abuse

[bakegarasu]

yeah. don't know the circumstances, never asked. died when i was born.

got told repeatedly i 'should have died with that whore' by him.

he's dead now though. killed him myself.

[laserhawk]

Good riddance.

You don't have any control over how you got here or came to be. The only thing that matters is what you do now.

[bakegarasu]

yeah.

i mean he killed my best friend while i was giving him a piggyback.

[laserhawk]

How old were you?

[bakegarasu]

oh this was like

a day before i came here.

[laserhawk]

No wonder it's been on your mind.

[bakegarasu]

i mean

i guess

i've seen a lot of people die it shouldn't be any different.

[laserhawk]

Don't be daft.

Of course it's different. It's always going to be different. It's going to leave a mark.

[bakegarasu]

it never has before. why should it now?

[laserhawk]

Because it was personal.

Personal stuff is always going to matter more.

[bakegarasu]

i guess.

i don't really know what to do with it. it happened. what am i supposed to do about it?

[laserhawk]

That's up to you.

You can move on. You can find a way to deal with it. You can bury it.

[bakegarasu]

don't even know where i'd start with the first two.

no one here knew them. no one here would mourn them. hell, don't think even my brother's group would mourn him, just jockey for position.

reiji though... he was my only friend.