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[bakegarasu]

i think

i think i had feelings for reiji and i never realized and now i don't know what to do about it

[H... happy Pride month? Wait no it's late -]

[laserhawk]

[ right. it would be a gay thing. ]

There's nothing you can do about it right now anyway? So you might as well think about it. Why you have them or what you want to do with them.

[bakegarasu]

i don't know what i want to do with them i didn't think i even liked anyone let alone guys at all

[Wait he should -]

i mean i know it's fine for a lot of people here but i didn't grow up with that sort of stuff

i'm sounding stupider the more i talk sorry

[laserhawk]

I didn't grow up with it either.

That's why I said you need to think about it. You're not going to have an immediate answer and no one's going to be able to give you one.

[bakegarasu]

[Huh. That's... surprising.]

i just feel bad since i never got to tell him how i feel because i was too dumb to know what it was.

but i guess i'm used to feeling dumb heh.

[laserhawk]

It always feels that way at first. Like you're the last person to figure it out.

But it's never easy. Not even for normal people.

[bakegarasu]

... that does make me feel a little better. at least it's not just me being dumb.

it took you a while too?

[laserhawk]

Yeah. It took a long time to get where I am.

[bakegarasu]

so you didn't come into the world as gay-sensei, noted.

... i got a picture of him. other than the one that showed up last month.

[laserhawk]

[ a picture. all dolph has of alex is his hairband, tucked away in his pocket.

he could wish for a picture. he doesn't. ]

I don't know what the fuck that is.

But good. Must be nice.

[bakegarasu]

sensei is 'teacher' or 'master', i'm just pulling your leg

it is though i think i need to keep it at home since it's getting crumpled from being in my jacket.

[laserhawk]

You could get a frame for it.

Or laminate it. That should keep it safe.

[bakegarasu]

yeah probably a good idea

... you're a good friend dolph

[laserhawk]

I didn't do much.

[ still. ]

I'm glad you found a feeling you cherish. And a person.

[bakegarasu]

you do plenty, don't kid yourself


me too even if i'm still figuring it out

[laserhawk]

I wasn't.

That's what's good about being here. You have the time for it.

[bakegarasu]

that's true.

i think i've spent more time with my thoughts the eight months i've been here than my entire life put together.

[laserhawk]

Funny how much you can process when you're not fighting and dying.

[bakegarasu]

pretty much. generally healthier for you from what i've been told. i've only had to go to the doctor a few times since i've been here.

[laserhawk]

You had to go to the doctor?

[bakegarasu]

a few scraps with monsters, plus that coughing disease thing

i try to get myself checked out if i've been in a major fight since i often can't tell if i've been hurt badly enough to need medical help

[laserhawk]

That makes sense. I heal fast but I never thought about it that way.

[bakegarasu]

yeah not being able to feel pain sucks in ways most people wouldnt think about

[laserhawk]

Definitely. People don't always understand that even losing pain is a loss.

[bakegarasu]

yeah i've had people say they wish they couldn't feel pain and they're very wrong

i guess that's why this place gave me healing powers heh