It's not something you have to figure out right away.
[ He raises Dolph's hand to press a kiss to it. ]
I know we talk about taking the chance when we have - but this is new for you. It's scary to think about putting down roots when they might be ripped away.
I recall very little. My father was supposedly an immigrant thief from India. My mother was a sex worker. Sometimes I think there were smells I associate with my father but I don't remember his face. Any of their faces.
I mostly lived on the streets before Eden. Sleeping in gutters, digging through trash.
[ There's a lot to unpack there, and not everything is something Jean can help with. But smells - and India, which he's seen talked about when Indian food is mentioned - has him mulling an idea over. ]
I haven't tried making any Indian recipes I've found. I've mostly stuck to things similar to what I know, and what Maruki's taught me, outside of pastries.
On the off chance I fuck it up... would you want me to try making something?
[ The moment is tactfully interrupted by a small cough; the draconian woman has their orders in a paper bag, and she hands it to both of them. Jean pays with the cords he's earned, and she reminds him of the spot she recommended.
Jean is quick to take Dolph's hand in his as they head towards the boardwalk. ]
[ not long ago, dolph would cultivate these fragments within himself. anything to be more palatable, more liked. if he's a good cook, if he's a good gardener, if he's good, then perhaps the world will align.
even though, once, he was still good and it meant nothing.
[ They walk to the spot - it's just past a couple of loading and unloading docks, an empty warehouse with a pier at the edge. The perfect place to sit and eat and potentially dangle your feet in the water.
Jean leads them down to the end. Here, it's darker, and it's easier to see the stars. He hands Dolph the container with his food. ]
The sound of the water... I think is the thing I never get used to. I used to think it meant I was going to drown. Now, I know better, but I like to listen to it.
[ He kicks his legs playfully too. Then, grinning, since he has waterproof boots, he dips his toe in and splashes some towards Dolph. ]
[ he shouldn't. he didn't want to. but he has to. and now, hopefully he doesn't need to. this future he's building with jean. it may not last, but it wouldn't be because of them.
so he'll hold on, for as long as he can. for both of them. ]
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[ He raises Dolph's hand to press a kiss to it. ]
I know we talk about taking the chance when we have - but this is new for you. It's scary to think about putting down roots when they might be ripped away.
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I think it's . . . the idea of roots that surprises me. I never had roots in anything.
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Do you... want to explore what roots you might have had? Anything you can remember from before, maybe.
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I recall very little. My father was supposedly an immigrant thief from India. My mother was a sex worker. Sometimes I think there were smells I associate with my father but I don't remember his face. Any of their faces.
I mostly lived on the streets before Eden. Sleeping in gutters, digging through trash.
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I haven't tried making any Indian recipes I've found. I've mostly stuck to things similar to what I know, and what Maruki's taught me, outside of pastries.
On the off chance I fuck it up... would you want me to try making something?
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As I said, I don't remember anything really. You're welcome to try.
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Anything is possible.
And you're right. It'd be nice.
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We'll make the space for your roots. It'll be okay if you don't know what to plant for a while.
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What about yours? Not just roses. Is there anything else?
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The sunflowers, that you mentioned before.
[ Softer: ]
They were Marco's favorite.
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I don't see why we can't have a garden that can hold all that we love.
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That sounds sweet, when you put it that way.
[ The moment is tactfully interrupted by a small cough; the draconian woman has their orders in a paper bag, and she hands it to both of them. Jean pays with the cords he's earned, and she reminds him of the spot she recommended.
Jean is quick to take Dolph's hand in his as they head towards the boardwalk. ]
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[ not long ago, dolph would cultivate these fragments within himself. anything to be more palatable, more liked. if he's a good cook, if he's a good gardener, if he's good, then perhaps the world will align.
even though, once, he was still good and it meant nothing.
but he's learned to spread it around more. ]
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Jean leads them down to the end. Here, it's darker, and it's easier to see the stars. He hands Dolph the container with his food. ]
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It's strange. The sound of water. Stars.
Does anything still surprise you?
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The sound of the water... I think is the thing I never get used to. I used to think it meant I was going to drown. Now, I know better, but I like to listen to it.
[ He kicks his legs playfully too. Then, grinning, since he has waterproof boots, he dips his toe in and splashes some towards Dolph. ]
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When I first got here, I came to the beach. It was overwhelming. Seeing it for real. Real water, real sand.
Even though this is still a dream in a way.
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[ Jean laughs a little, flicking his shoe tip at Dolph. ]
My time with you is something I'll always appreciate.
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I'm lucky to have to met you.
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[ He beams at Dolph. ]
You've taught me a lot, like how to appreciate the people I care about, and not being afraid of what might go wrong.
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I don't think I could have held out so long without you.
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I think you're stronger than you give yourself credit for... but I'm glad that I was able to help. You shouldn't have to hold out alone.
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so he'll hold on, for as long as he can. for both of them. ]
Neither should you.
I'm on your side. Yours.
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[ He leans in and kisses Dolph, brushing some of his hair back.
It may not last, but it will matter that they did it. That they were together. ]
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wrap? i kind of thought they'd explore more but they got derailed
yeah sounds good <3 they'll have more opportunities