I didn't, back home. I didn't know they were suns or other planets or what the moon really was. Didn't even know the earth really was round until we broke through the wall.
Erwin told me about some of the astronomy books here and I looked into them. I'm keeping the names we came up with for here, though. Like the fishward constellation.
[ He thinks Marco would have liked learning about the stars being little suns. ]
I'm not sure. I just know I wanted to get out. Be free to live and love and grow like anyone else.
But now that I am, it's harder to figure out things. Maruki asked me to think about it. Pick up some new hobbies, but nothing really came to mind. It was always easier to . . . piggyback on other people's dreams.
Then the fried food can be a place to start. Quartz is still important to you, and it's still yours. We don't ... forget the people we used to love. We grow around the space they left. Sometimes you'll find them in yourself.
Marco loved the stars. Sasha loved food. You have Quartz.
[ alex is a different story. but he appreciates that. ]
I guess I don't want to give up the things I loved with him. Clubbing. Drinking. Dancing. Just like I loved plants and pottery thanks to Livio. Food and clothing thanks to you. The beach and crafts, for Finnick.
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[ Two seconds later, as if on a dime: ]
Babe that means you're my world!!
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Obviously. You've been mine for some time now.
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[ Yes, Jean has been reading astronomy books again. ]
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[ not something he knows a lot about. ]
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I didn't know you knew that much about astronomy.
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Erwin told me about some of the astronomy books here and I looked into them. I'm keeping the names we came up with for here, though. Like the fishward constellation.
[ He thinks Marco would have liked learning about the stars being little suns. ]
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I never thought about it before. Learning about that. I guess my desires were more grounded.
But it's not a bad thing, to look beyond.
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[ Jean kind of assumes it's about being loved, admittedly, but he doesn't want to put words in Dolph's mouth. ]
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But now that I am, it's harder to figure out things. Maruki asked me to think about it. Pick up some new hobbies, but nothing really came to mind. It was always easier to . . . piggyback on other people's dreams.
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[ He's sort of speaking from experience. In a way, it's still strange to realize there was a whole world, moving on, outside of those walls. ]
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Okay. I imagine picking a favorite food is hard. What if we tried to find a food you don't like?
[ Imagine: the luxury of turning down food. ]
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Not sure how we'd do that, but I never liked Eden's fried foods. Always seemed too greasy for my tastes.
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And that can be a place to start. Not liking fried foods. Like how Quartz was a place to start something of your own.
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dolph mulls over this text for a long time before he responds. ]
Quartz . . . is similar to Prism.
Where I met Alex. We met outside. I was on the run. Starving. I was going to mug him for money. Then I pretty much collapsed in his arms.
He took me in. Didn't sell me out to Eden. Cared for me then.
[ another long pause before dolph adds. ]
Sorry.
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Then the fried food can be a place to start. Quartz is still important to you, and it's still yours. We don't ... forget the people we used to love. We grow around the space they left. Sometimes you'll find them in yourself.
Marco loved the stars. Sasha loved food. You have Quartz.
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[ alex is a different story. but he appreciates that. ]
I guess I don't want to give up the things I loved with him. Clubbing. Drinking. Dancing. Just like I loved plants and pottery thanks to Livio. Food and clothing thanks to you. The beach and crafts, for Finnick.
It's easier when it's for someone else.
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I think understand wanting something all your own, though. I guess it defeats the purpose if I offer to help, but I'll be here for you either way.
Nothing says you can't start and stop hobbies, either. If you try it and don't like it - that's something you know about yourself now too, isn't it?
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And that's true. Do you recommend any?
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close to wrap BUT
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