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[neighsaying]

[ Jean doesn't seem worried in the slightest about Dolph's body jerking, letting his eyes flutter closed as he sucks. Determined to show off, he bobs his head until he's taken Dolph's cock fully, down his throat, so that his nose brushes the hair at the base of Dolph's cock before he pulls back.

Wonder how someone might look smug sucking cock? Wonder no more, Jean has somehow managed it, as he ducks his head down again, starting a pattern of taking Dolph deep and pulling back a bit. ]

[laserhawk]

[ he is absolutely getting teased and he knows it. but he doesn't really have room to protest as he keens, tossing his head back and feeling himself on the threshold. arousal builds in the pit of his stomach, making his head spin, heat clouding his vision. ]

[neighsaying]

[ Jean has no intentions of stopping unless Dolph asks him to, so he keeps going, humming gently as he works Dolph over. One of his hands comes up to cup his balls as well, squeezing gently and trying to stimulate him with not just his mouth, but his hands as well.

And apparently prepared to swallow, if his continued use of said mouth is any indication. ]

[laserhawk]

[ it doesn't take long and he'll probably be embarrassed about that later too. all of those factors, the wet heat, the gentle touch and the fact that it was jean has him coming soon, his fingers clenched around the sheets and in jean's hair. ]

[neighsaying]

[ Hey, Jean is going to take it as flattery. He works Dolph through his orgasm, swallowing and sucking around his cock, only backing off when he's sure it's probably too sensitive for Dolph to continue. He still nuzzles his cheek against one thigh, smiling up at Dolph, his lips wet and red from all the sliding up at down. ]

[laserhawk]

[ he huffs, unable to stop his smile. ]

You're gorgeous.

[neighsaying]

Isn't that my line?

[ His voice is a little rougher from the blowjob, a tone he knows some people find very appealing, and he lets the smile turn into a grin, leaning up to press a quick kiss to Dolph's lips. ]

The noises you make... I could have listened for a while. I didn't think you'd appreciate me backing off, though.

[laserhawk]

I wouldn't have minded.

[ he would have done anything jean wanted. anything. ]

[neighsaying]

[ What Jean wants is to make Dolph feel good, so in his mind he's done exactly what he set out to do. He does climb back up from between Dolph's legs to sit on the bed, so he can keep kissing him. ]

Well, next time I'll draw it out for you, until you're begging.

[ He's still grinning. ]

[laserhawk]

[ he can't help the flush to his cheeks as he leans into the kiss. ]

Is that a promise?

[neighsaying]

Absolutely.

[ He brushes some of Dolph's hair back, kissing him again. ]

Whatever you want to do, and more.

[laserhawk]

[ that is so different from alex that he takes a moment to parse it. ]

You make it seem so simple.

[neighsaying]

Shouldn't it be? We're both here to make each other feel good. It's one thing to not be sure about something, but if you're not having fun, I'm not having fun.

[ He reaches down, brushing a hand over Dolph's chest. ]

If you told me touching your chest did nothing for you, I wouldn't insist on continuing to do it. If you tell me you hate taking dick, we'd just do it the other way.

[ He shrugs lightly. ]

I want to be with you, not just have a quick fuck.

[laserhawk]

[ dolph does his best to parse this. his hand clenches into a fist for a moment as if to still his emotions. ]

I — I always did what Alex wanted. And it was fine. It felt good. But maybe I was just fooling myself.

[neighsaying]

[ Jean reaches down to rest his hand over that fist - whether metal or flesh it doesn't matter to him. ]

I like doing what my partners want. It's not uncommon to feel that way, but either we're meeting for something specific or we're checking in.

[ He'd checked in with Mikasa, when he touched her, taught her how to leave marks with her mouth, gave her every chance to back off and respected it when she did. ]

Did Alex... ever check with you about what you wanted?

cw: mentions of attempted suicide

[laserhawk]

. . . I don't remember.

I loved Alex. More than anything in the world. More than myself.

[ which is why dolph went wild when alex betrayed him. partly in fury, a rage that burned like no other. and a sorrow that went so deep, he welcomed a missile with open arms. ]

Maybe he did. But it's more likely . . . he didn't.

[ and that hurts to say. it hurts to speak bad of alex, even now. ]

[neighsaying]

[ More than myself. Jean had berated Eren, as a younger man, for acting dangerously precisely because Mikasa would follow him into any danger herself. His expression is sympathetic, not pitying. ]

Okay.

[ He uniquely understands how someone that deep might find it hard to speak ill of the person they loved. He doesn't say Alex was bad. ]

Well, I want to do what you want to do. I'll check in to make sure we're on the same page about those kinds of things. If you don't want something - you can always tell me, no matter how far into it we are.

[laserhawk]

[ he hesitates. ]

Wouldn't that be exhausting? Because I'm — [ broken. ashamed. the closeted little queer. ] — still . . . trying.

[neighsaying]

No. I'll ask you until you're sick of it and tell me to get on to the fun part.

[ He offers Dolph a sincere smile. ]

I'd rather hurt myself than hurt any of my partners like that.

[laserhawk]

[ and that's the difference. is this . . . how it was supposed to be. ]

Okay. I'll try to speak my mind more.

[neighsaying]

I'll still check in, it's a two way street and all.

[ Jean leans in and presses a kiss to Dolph again, slow and sweet. ]

Do you want to lay down and hold each other?

[ That's something Mikasa likes, and Dolph liked the contact earlier. He wants Dolph to know he can have that without sex, too. ]

[laserhawk]

[ he smiles faintly. being held is easily his favourite thing. ]

Yes. I'd like that very much.

[neighsaying]

[ Jean easily flops backwards despite the fact that his boots are still on, and opens his arms up, indicating Dolph should get in here and snuggle up, bare skin to bare skin.

Would he have liked to mess around more? Yes, but that's not his priority. He knows more about Dolph's previous relationship now - and he's not impressed by this Alex guy in the slightest. ]

[laserhawk]

[ dolph hesitates for a moment before shuffling close, trying to fold himself in jean's space. like he used to, with alex. one of his legs sidles on top of jean's as he tucks himself close. ]

[neighsaying]

[ Jean lets Dolph get comfortable, letting him rest his head on his arm or chest, whatever he prefers. The other arm does come down to wrap around Dolph as best as he can, fingers spreading out against his back, tilting his head down to kiss his forehead. ]

I've got you, okay? No matter what.