[ astarion is gone. finnick is gone. all the people he tried to love, gone gone gone. someday, he feels he'll wake up to the wreckage of the somnius and everyone will be gone. just him. a recurring nightmare that has given him no peace.
he doesn't know what to say so the silence descends for a moment as dolph tries to wrangle the words. lays his hand over jean's chest so he can hear his heartbeat. wants to etch the sound into his being. ]
I'm — [ good, fine? constantly dreading the day but trying to find a way to keep going, one step one step, he can't fall, he can't falter, but he wants to. he wants to. ] — I've been better. Just . . . hanging on.
[ dolph falls silent for a bit. all of those options sound nice, but it feels like stopgap for his problem. and it's a problem with no real solution. they have no control here. vaeros still looms, distantly or present, his influence remains.
but . . . there are things he can do. things he should take back. ]
We should . . . go on a date. Do something special. Just the two of us.
Mmm... we should go in the evening, so we can look at the stars when it gets dark.
[ Jean ruffles Dolph's hair slightly. ]
There's no one style. You make or buy some food, you take a blanket or wagon out somewhere nice, you enjoy the view. Whether that's the person or the place. You get to just... be.
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he doesn't know what to say so the silence descends for a moment as dolph tries to wrangle the words. lays his hand over jean's chest so he can hear his heartbeat. wants to etch the sound into his being. ]
I'm — [ good, fine? constantly dreading the day but trying to find a way to keep going, one step one step, he can't fall, he can't falter, but he wants to. he wants to. ] — I've been better. Just . . . hanging on.
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I realize this isn't the best question at even the best of times, but... is there anything more I can do to help?
Even if it's just to hold on for you, for a little while. So you don't have to hold yourself up.
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but . . . there are things he can do. things he should take back. ]
We should . . . go on a date. Do something special. Just the two of us.
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A date... that sounds nice. Should we pack a lunch together, and go on a picnic?
[ Jean doesn't fully know it, but that would give Dolph control over the whole thing. Food, location. Nothing out of his reach. ]<
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If that's okay. I know I'm not as good as you are.
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[ By virtue of learning from Jean, he and Dolph work well in the kitchen.
Meanwhile, Maruki and Jean are not allowed within ten feet of each other if one of them is cooking. ]
Anything specific you have in mind?
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I don't really know much about picnics.
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[ Jean ruffles Dolph's hair slightly. ]
There's no one style. You make or buy some food, you take a blanket or wagon out somewhere nice, you enjoy the view. Whether that's the person or the place. You get to just... be.
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We. We just get to be.
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[ He squeezes his arm around Dolph. He's still anxious and sick with it. But this... it helps. It helps him a lot. ]
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If you need to let go, let go.
I'll still be here.