I'd never think that Dolph! [His voice does raise at that but not in anger at Dolph more to prove his point.] You take those thoughts back right now Mister! I care so much about you! This is your trauma and I'm sure if the man who gave me mine was here I'd be reacting the same way. You aren't and will never be pathetic to me.
[That flustered face is too cute and Zack can't help but just grab his face and kiss him, hoping to kiss all the worries away. Maybe even show some of his deeper feelings as well in the kiss. When he does pull away he can't help and stop the words that leave his lips.]
I want to be there for you Dolph, whenever you're in pain. I love you.
[ dolph can barely hear him. it's all white noise at the moment. he can't have heard that right. it's too soon. too much. his breathing comes out in sharp staccato puffs. ]
Move.
[ he needs to get out. he needs to — he needs to get out. ]
[Zack can see the fear in Dolph's eye and it hurts his chest that he's the cause of this. This isn't what he wanted. His big mouth got him in trouble again. He knows he should give Dolph his space but his body won't move.]
Dolph please...I'm sorry I...I didn't mean to say that yet....not now when you're already so hurt....
[Zack wants to hug him and keep him close but he doesn't touch him for fear of making the situation worse.]
[ he can't hear zack. all he can hear is alex. alex, telling dolph how much he loved him. alex shooting him. alex's blood on his lips, his hands on dolph, I need you. I love you. distantly, he can feel himself shake. he can't. he can't do that all over again.
[He can't help the tears falling as he sees Dolph shake. He reaches out for him but at so ragged a voice he doesn't touch him and brings his hand back in and just nods.]
I'm sorry...I'm so sorry...
[His body finally responds and he does move out of the booth.]
[ dolph doesn't waste any time, hurtling out of the booth. he doesn't want to hurt zack, he's sure of that much. he wants to be sure of that much. he wants — he can't think straight, he can't think at all, there's nothing here but the overwhelming panic and fear that has sunken its teeth into him.
he just keeps running. somewhere. anywhere. far away until his legs buckle and dolph just. stops. closes his eye.
[Zack doesn't go after him right away. Instead he wipes his face and quickly pays for their unfinished food. He does try to find Dolph after, hoping the cold air and maybe being alone for a bit would calm him down but he has no idea where he ran to. He spends honestly a few hours running through the up and down before he finally gives up his search. Zack ends up going to his home but not before sending a text message for Dolph to read when he's feeling better.]
I'm sorry I scared you. I didn't mean to say it then when you were being so open to me. It was wrong. I won't take back the words but I know the timing was bad. I'm sorry and I hope you're safe and feel better soon. I never wanted to ever upset you like that.
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You must think I'm rather pathetic. Even now, I'm — [ just a fucking mess. ]
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. . . Thanks.
[ he's even a bit flustered. ]
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I want to be there for you Dolph, whenever you're in pain. I love you.
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— What?
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I-I...I mean...Dolph wait...that was...I shouldn't have....
cw: panic attack
Move.
[ he needs to get out. he needs to — he needs to get out. ]
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Dolph please...I'm sorry I...I didn't mean to say that yet....not now when you're already so hurt....
[Zack wants to hug him and keep him close but he doesn't touch him for fear of making the situation worse.]
P-Please...please don't go...
[His own blue eyes start to water.]
please don't leave me
cw: panic attack
his voice is ragged. ]
Move. Please.
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I'm sorry...I'm so sorry...
[His body finally responds and he does move out of the booth.]
cw: panic attack
he just keeps running. somewhere. anywhere. far away until his legs buckle and dolph just. stops. closes his eye.
if he wasn't before, he truly was pathetic now. ]
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I'm sorry I scared you. I didn't mean to say it then when you were being so open to me. It was wrong. I won't take back the words but I know the timing was bad. I'm sorry and I hope you're safe and feel better soon. I never wanted to ever upset you like that.
I'll be at my place if you need me.
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finally dolph does manage one: ]
later.